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In Need of Some Changes


Today's post is a little deeper than my usual posts, but I feel like I just need to get these feelings out and I'm posting them here to keep myself accountable. I've been pretty unhappy lately- a little bit about our current situation, but mostly with myself. I feel gross on the inside, I feel that I look gross on the outside, and now I know that it is up to me to make these changes.

I have always been a pretty fit. I played soccer for years, ran track and cross-country, and loved being active. But ever since college I've let fitness fall to the wayside. I've tried to change this numerous times over the past few years with no success. I am currently taking a Best Body Workout class once a week, but that isn't enough. I feel bloated almost all of the time, I haven't been sleeping good for weeks now, and I'm at my wits end. I need to start eating healthier, working out more, and drinking more water. I'm not lying when I say that I haven't had a sip of water all day today. I've never been a water drinker, but that has to change.

On top of feeling gross on the inside I'm feeling gross on the outside too. My nanny uniform consists of yoga pants, a top, my hair in a pony, and no makeup. After a few weeks of this you start to feel like a middle school aged girl. Not a 23 year old WIFE. My poor husband has heard me whine about this for months now. I just want to look cute. I'm not one of those girls who can just naturally look cute in that "uniform."

So after weeks of complaining and feel down about these things I had enough. No one is going to change these things for me, I need to change them myself! I make it a point to do my makeup at least 3 days a week, I'm currently looking for a new hair style that I want to try, and I've made myself a routine. One that includes beauty, fitness, and "chores." And I'm slowly adding these new "tasks" into everyday life. Like I mentioned in Thursday's post- once I've stuck to the routine for 3 weeks I'll post it as well as my progress. Does anyone have any advice on how to implement and stick to a routine? I'd love to hear it!

And as for the things I can't change I need to just let them go. Living with my in-laws is a huge blessing overall and I have absolutely not doubt that it'll be worth it in the end. August isn't too far away ;)  There's absolutely nothing that I can do about getting accepted into a grad program so why stress myself sick over it? I just need to keep telling myself that everything will work out in one way or another. 

Thanks for listening to me ramble... I'll try to keep my next few posts lighthearted!


  1. I think falling off of the fitness train is normal! Thankfully I had the wedding to kick my butt back into gear. You've got this!

  2. I think these are all normal thoughts! I have TOTALLY fallen off the fitness train like you wouldn't believe. I just committed to doing a stair climb with some co workers so I am hoping it puts me back on the train!!!

  3. I've been stuck living in my fathers in-law apartment for 5 years while we get everything settled so I completely understand the frustration with the situation. As much as you know it is helping in the long run, it still sucks to know you are not completely out on your own yet.
    As for everything else, I am currently completely off my workout routine and it stinks! I keep telling myself I'll go on my days off and then somehow it never happens. I hope you can find a way to make it stick and let me know what works!